I guess I was wrong about him from the start. I shouldn't judge a person by what he say and how he present himself. Probably he was trying to help me all along and I was the person who had been inferior and rejecting all the help.

I should and I need to start working on it.

I gave myself a thorough thought just now.

Am I really that bad in it? I don't think so.
Is this topic really that irritating and ridiculous? I don't think so either.

Maybe my mum was right, if you don't go in and put your heart into it, you can never get it right.

Let me survive through it this time and prove myself to him and to everyone else.

There's this guilt in me suddenly...