Just went around reading some people's blogs and I came across this person's. Not sure if I should name here. But that post really got me thinking.

What makes me striving for perfection and As in academic results? What's the purpose and what am I gonna do after that? Be someone special?

I'm not sure. But I know that I don't wanna be just another NUS High School student who sits in class and mug and trying to score As, hoping that she will be a pro in school someday without knowing what she's gonna do after that. That post has made me think that what I'm trying to do is to make myself someone special, someone unique, with a different life beyond average man. And do something big? but how? That blogger has already achieved the foundations to lead a different life, that is, really good academic results. He/she is determined to get what he/she wants. And he/she is talking big on his/her blog but what about me? With a CAP of 4.16 isn't getting me anything at all. Especially in this school, it is hard to get myself somewhere, looking at the number of pros around.

I really don't know how to put what I'm thinking now into words. There's too much to say.

Is it too late to start now? Do I really have that much determination to perservere as long as him/her? I question myself and I know it's not gonna be that easy.