SUCHANG(:

IM BACK!

2009-11-07T00:33:00.003+08:00

Okay I haven't been posting here like since ever. But I'm back! haha...like anyone still reads this dead blog =P

Well, I'm kind of half moved to chinese Sina blog. yeah. But I'll still post here when I feel like updating in English, like now.

Anyway here's the link, again: http://blog.sina.com.cn/diandiandidi328

And, there's pretty much to update!

I'm moving into hostel next year! That's like a really REALLY big thing for me because I'm like so dependent on my parents! I'm gonna stay with Jiu Rui, a china scholar. I'm pretty worried too, like about how I will be able to manage it. =/
Exams are over!! Like, woohoo! But my last paper was screwed, horribly screwed. I left almost half the paper blank. It's trigo =.=
I'm going back to China! YAYYY! On the 21st Nov =) But I will be back like very very soon. Maybe early december and I will be able to join council camp as well as 207 chalet before I fly off to Taiwan/Korea again. Exciting.
Post exams are busy. Busier than pre exams =.= I have like so many things to do! Catalyzer workshop, chemagic demos at science center, IR Presentation at clean and green carnival, CO stuff, OUTINGS AND MEETUPS WOOHOO! =D
Council internal selection result is released on 20th Nov and I'm nervous ><
ASTRO BOY IS NICE! It's super touching and I love it.
Michael Jackson's movie on Sunday, Flag day and Vienna Boys' Concert tomorrow.
Really busy but enjoying it. =)

Leaves a message

2009-10-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

Ahh, I've been daoing this blog badly. =.=

Currently's been posting more frequently on the chinese blog on Sina.

Yeah people, just go over that side and read and leave post replies! =D

feel free to leave in english....

But yeah I will still update here sometimes. =P

Gastric

2009-10-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

Currently stuck at home with a really bad gastric that I had been having since last week. ><

I should be revising Biology now if I wanna go back to school tmr.

Anyway, started up a new CHINESE blog. This is gonna be the one that I'll be active on since the one on 51 doesn't allow people to leave msgs without registering.

Nevertheless, I won't be abandoning this blog. :)

http://blog.sina.com.cn/diandiandidi328

Heh.

Ahh busy.

2009-10-04T17:04:00.001+08:00

Recently had beeen pretty busy for no exact reason.

Well, maybe just things here and there. Biology exam next week and I haven't really studied. I'm not feeling very anxious either. Weird.

Friday night my family dined with Tianran's family at Spring Court. Yesterday did work for the entire day, did most of the Math Journal and completed what I need to do for now for IR. That's all =/ Watched the 中秋节晚会 on CCTV 4. Nice. Hahaha.

Today morning practiced piano and went for piano lesson. Had lunch with Tianran's family again at Pariss before they fly off tonight. I came home and slept for 1.5 hour =.=

What a waste of time.

Woke up and now I started doing work! Ahh.

Chem Worksheet
Physics Worksheet
Math Journal

STUDY BIO!!!

唉呀病了。

2009-09-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

Okay, so i'm sick again ><

Well not surprising after sleeping at 12+ everyday and waking up at 4.30am to study for the past week when I had to study for Math and Geog test and also prepare for CO Concert.

But nontheless, CO Concert was a great success! :D

So much compliments from everybody about the concert, haha. And also many many people to thank (:

Today slept until 9am and then woke up to practice piano and did some homework, not very efficient since I'm having the random diziness and all that =/

MUST JIAYOU! 1 MORE MONTH TO EXAMS! And just 1month and a few more days to flying off! :D

Gonna fly back to China on the same plane with Jiaqin, Zhou Shao and Jiahuan! Yay! Since I'm getting off first at Fuzhou then they will continue for another 2 hours+ to Hangzhou.

Will be visiting Tianran, Anzhi, Xuehe they all in Tianjin as well! Then might go to Beijing together!

YAYY! So much to look forward to during the holidays.

But as of now, I have the following to worry about:

1. CHEM QUIZ (wed)
2. INTERVIEW!!!! crap. (wed)
3. EXAMS! EXAMS! EXAMS!
4. Clean and Green Carnival.
5. SSEF.

Rawr.

Chinese Orch Concert!

2009-09-16T21:53:00.002+08:00

YOOO EVERYONE!

Colours of Autumn
Chinese Orchestra Concert
25 September 2009
Friday, 7pm
@NUS High School Auditorium
*Free Admission

秋之色
华乐团音乐会
9月25日
星期五，晚上7点
@国大附中观众席
*入场免费

BE THERE TO SUPPORT! =D
Refreshments are provided!

Teachers like Mr Yee and Mr Ku will be performing! :D
Talent Search Winner - Emily! :D

Woohoo! =D

oh no!

2009-09-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

I FORGOT TO POST ABOUT BOTANIC GARDENS!

How could I!

But it's so late now! I shall post tmr! Cookie!(:

And I really needa put all the links back on my blog if not blog-hopping is so hardd =( It's so limited with so few links.

first day

2009-09-14T23:03:00.002+08:00

Rah rawr. I haven't practiced piano =/

Butbut, i did work today okay! :D

btw. something funny today is that i woke up like the second before I got off my dad's car and rushed into the hall and i was almost late.

Panted like crazy during the national anthem and suddenly realised that I was supposed to make announcement today! But crap, I totally forgot and didn't write the script! O.O

Then I went backstage and started typing the script in my phone and so I read from my phone. Haha! At least I make it through =.=

nevermind. haha.

ahh. My next few saturdays are booked AGAIN! =/ i wanna mug already...

So much happend in term 3 that I didn't even study properly. Even I myself felt that the results were damn digusting... ><

畅畅拿出你的勇气来奋斗吧！！~~

NUS Library

2009-09-11T12:00:00.003+08:00

I'm in NUS Library currently, though finished my read up for IR but still coming here to do work.

3 main things that I haven't done:

Chinese Essay - today start, edit tomorrow, refine sunday.
Bio Assignment - tomorrow
Math Notes questions - tomorrow.

Oh and I need to repack all my files. They are messy like crap. ><
I wanna start my Term 4 fresh and organized. No more slacker me. ><

Kay shall go and do physics for half an hour before going for lunch. and then school.

今天我学会了。

2009-09-10T23:58:00.003+08:00

昨天我收到的一条短信是这么写的：

人和人是完全不一样的生物，你应该很清楚的。
所以要学会了解别人，才会避免受到伤害。
不能以你自己的心态去要求别人，这只会徒增烦恼。
要别人一时间改变自己的习性，怎么可能？

我觉得这条短信对我感触很大。不管是对家里，对朋友，都是一样的。

不过我想在了解别人和要别人改变上加上包容，或许不要人家为你而改变，让你自己学会有颗包容、宽容别人的心。

这是一种高尚的品德。但也很难完全拥有。

这是锻炼自己的方法。

环境不能适应你，你一定要适应它！

就像我对雪禾说的，只要真诚的对人，做真实的自己。现在加上包容别人。而只有能接受真是的你的人才是永久的朋友。真心朋友是双方面的，不能只让一方来承担维持友情的任务。如果你发现你不用心了，那你就不能成为那个人的真心朋友。而如果你觉得你的努力是单方面的，那就放弃吧，他不会是你的真心朋友。

我真的真的在维持我与每一个人的友情。而这努力是真心的。虽然我这样说自己很欠扁，但是这是真的。

今天我也发现了一件事。

可能你永远都不会来这里，不过我想对你说的是

今天晚上跟你聊天，发现你真的是一个很勇敢很勇敢也很善良的人。我突然发现我对你抱怨我的家庭是多么的可笑。我不该对你有成见，我应该向你学习。

你是我第二个错怪的好人。

我有一次一直跟天然说你们错怪某某人了。你们不了解他。
可是我没有想到我自己也在错怪身边的人。

所以。在了解别人之前，绝对不要对一个人下定论。这样不会伤害别人，也不会伤害自己。了解了别人，会发现每个人从心里的深处都是好人，只是有些人懂得表达出来，有些人不懂得罢了。

陌生的感觉

2009-09-09T00:49:00.004+08:00

成就 - 是个陌生的感觉。
今天我 [终于] 再一次感受到了

Yup.
(If you wanna skip the crap, scroll down to the chinese part at the bottom of the post. )

I felt accomplished today!

Reached NUS Library at 10am and started with some IR research. Well, more of self studying Weibull Function.

Anyway, started to mug geography and managed to finish 2 lectures today, which is quite a lot if you wanna try to fully understand and remember it. Did half of lec 3 but couldn't finish cos I don't really understood so might as well not continue. Gonna meet Mrs Yeo tomorrow and ask her.

Did question 1 for geog assignment and left question 2 for tomorrow cos it's under lecture 3. =P

What else did I do..

OH. I did my english homework with a really really REALLY big dictionary today. HAHA.

Revised some chemistry too. Basically because I did badly for a quiz =/

Anyway comment of the day: Reference collection 'room' is eerie silence =.=
(Though Science Library is far worse...)

I saw Mrs Chui today.

Left the library at 9.30pm. Yeah that's like almost 12 hours in NUS.

Tomorrow (today)'s gonna be another busy day! =D

8am Wake up.
Do physics.
Go to school and meet Mrs Yeo.
Lunch
Do work or Practice song.
Go for class outing.
Go for movie!

Hahaha.

Work work work and more work =/ from the day after tomorrow (today) onwards.

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今天晚上在回家的路上跟妈妈聊天，心里总结很久的一些东西想了遍。

不管那些乱七八糟的，总要的是真诚待人，做简单真实的自己。

妈妈说，这世界上太多人都是为别人而活，别人喜欢怎么样就做什么样给人家看
我说，这样不是很辛苦。

对的，其实做人很简单。

妈妈说，人云亦云的人是平庸的。
我想了想，我有时候还是会这样的。有进步的空间。

都说不要让别人的眼光影响自己，可是怎么办呢？我的测试出来是个 I 啊。

想想最近发生的事，我觉得我太容易被人与人之间发生的小小的不愉快影响。

到底是为什么？
因为我是 I？就像给 I 写的，我害怕被孤立。我怕被人家拒绝。我希望，我喜欢大家都很好都很开心的天天在一起。

嗯。哦。

越说越混乱 = =

刚说的要做简单真实的自己。所以不应该纠结这些，我是怎样就保持自己的风格!
It's just me!

新面孔！

2009-09-07T21:59:00.003+08:00

噢累累，新面孔！

虽然弄完了超级有成就感的不过无意中又调了一个中文字体很小很难看到的blogskin. 弄大了英文又会超级难看的。

要不是这个Blog用了超久我真的很想搬家耶，找个新blog.

不过话说：日久生情嘛，这里记载了我几年人生中的点点滴滴，真不舍得~

好叭好叭。

今天晚上弄这个又没干件正经事，明天早上要去星巴克读书！俺们要奋斗知道伐！不过好想使腰跟周少拿我的东西去吼。。。怎么办 = =

我饿了。

interesting

2009-09-07T21:37:00.005+08:00

Had been blogging quite frequently x) Basically because there's time and mood to =D

Anyway, here's something interesting:

LOL. I have like totally no idea who are those people, except for Joey and Zhang Ziyi. Hahahaha x)

And lol okay, so I look like Kana, whoever that is. Hahah. o.O

Anyways. Today was plain tedious! ><

First I reached queenstown at 9am for Piano lesson, then I went NUS to do some read up for IR. Then I went to school for CO, skipping lunch, until 5pm.

I stayed on about 30mins to 1 hr more to do the sectional practice for Canon In D, and then practiced the song with the Chenwei and Xuehe for the China Student performance o.o

Sooooo tired now, but nvm I shall go and study some geography.

假期的开始

2009-09-07T02:03:00.002+08:00

oh rawr.

I slept until 12noon today because the TYA high tea was cancelled, thinking I will be hardworking to do what I wrote in the afternoon.

In the end, I ended up being bored and playing neopets =.=

Then I slept from 4pm to 6pm o.o

Woke up to eat dinner. =.=

Practice piano for 2 hours then watched TV for an hour and continued for another hour plus. Finished up my music homework and then did a little bit of Geography.

Argh =.=

Tomorrow's got two days of stuff to do.

I'm like chionging everything now so that I don't have to chiong during school days. ><

Anyway, time to sleep. Watched TV from 12midnight. I swear that Channel 55 is damn nice =D

Piano at 9am tomorrow. o.o
Gonna go NUS Library and do abit of research work for IR and mug there before going to school for CO. =P

Animal!

2009-09-06T00:26:00.001+08:00

Oh no why does SPCA only allow volunteers at least 18 years of age T.T

JBP

2009-09-05T20:15:00.004+08:00

Went jurong bird park today for the Science Comm lesson! =D

Quite fun to see the birds! And they are so cute and pretty! xD But there's alot of things to mug. ><

Ohoh, there's this Caucasian guy in our class who is SO PRETTY AND HOT. hahahah xD
*fangirls*

Anyway, yesterday I wanted to relax so badly that I went for 2 movies in a row at GV Tampines. The first one is Up at 7.20pm which ends at 9pm sharp and then i immediately hopped over to Cinema 5 for the next movie - G-Force.

Both of them are uber touching and really really nice. I think G Force is nicer than Up.

Not only that the guinea pigs are so cute in G Force but I love their team spirit and all that! =)

But there's a hiccup in between.

When I went to Cinema 5, I at first accidentally went into Cinema 6. It was showing Dance Flick which is NC 16 and there were scenes that are so SUPER crude and sick in the wrong way. I mean if it's like those romance NC 16 still acceptable but those super crude stuff I was like "ohmygod that's so...."

Anyway, I looked at the time and realised it was like 9.30 already. The adverts shouldn't be this long. THEN i realised I ran into the wrong cinema and went to watch G Force.

So, i missed 15 to 20 mins of G Force. T.T

Anyway, having a bad sore throat now and shall go shower and rest! =)

TOMORROW NEED TO PRACTICE PIANO ALREADY!

Holidays!

2009-09-04T18:13:00.003+08:00

Woohoo Holidays! =D

话说。
从学校出来的时候，每次都有很不想直接回家的感觉 = =
这是很不好的~
我要改掉。

还有。
今天畅畅回家的时候路过一间发饰店，
很自然的走了进去。。
还买了两个头箍。。

突然发现自己还是挺爱打扮的 = =
一直觉得自己很中性，不过突然感觉自己还是很女生的。。
可能是被压抑着的 = =

Goals of Holiday:

- To study for :

Bio Quiz 2 (T4W1)
Bio Exam
Funtions Test 2
Geography Test 2

and make sure I do well in them! (:

- To revise PHYSICS thoroughly.
- To revise CHEMISTRY thoroughly.
(Actually math geog and bio too but will definitely do so since I have to study for the tests too. )

- To practice for China Students' item at CO Concert
- To practice Piano PROPERLY.(:
- To finish my UK Visa Application.
- To go Kbox with Meifang!
- To watch a few movies! =D

Hahaha. Seems like a lot of things to do =P But shall plan out my time well so I won't waste them! =)

Movies to catch:

- Up (tonight)
- G-Force
- 9
- I love you, Beth Cooper
- Aliens in the Attic
- My sister's keeper
- Accident

O.O that's alot. But list subject to modification according to reviews =D hahah.

Anyway, relaxed yesterday and today.

Will be going Jurong Bird Park for training tmr! =D Hope it's as fun as the training they had in Zoo! Shall study abit after I come back tomorrow. Will have to plan out a schedule ((:

I'M GONNA BE DIFFERENT! (:

i'm sorry

2009-09-02T21:53:00.002+08:00

I guess I was wrong about him from the start. I shouldn't judge a person by what he say and how he present himself. Probably he was trying to help me all along and I was the person who had been inferior and rejecting all the help.

I should and I need to start working on it.

I gave myself a thorough thought just now.

Am I really that bad in it? I don't think so.
Is this topic really that irritating and ridiculous? I don't think so either.

Maybe my mum was right, if you don't go in and put your heart into it, you can never get it right.

Let me survive through it this time and prove myself to him and to everyone else.

There's this guilt in me suddenly...

shoo

2009-09-02T21:01:00.002+08:00

Argh I don't like quizzes and tests. Esp for physics. Shoooo.

Gonna have a physics test tomorrow and I haven't really studied. Need to do last min mugging.

This holiday's gonna be busy and quite tiring. With all the practices and stuff. But I'm still gonna make time for Kbox with Meifang they all. I CANT WAIT MAN. =D

I needa catch up with some work already. Lagging behind a bit on all the subjects, cos I haven't really looked at some notes the 2nd time, esp physics. This will be done during holidays.

Tmr is my last test for the term. I just hope I survive through it with something like a 70%.

The term 4 Suchang is gonna be different!

For some reason I really hope I'm 304. Though everyone there is like so pro, but at least that kind of environment motivates me to study harder and push for something better, not being satisfied with what I already achieved.

I really wanna slow down abit in life and just enjoy the bits of happenings here and there without worrying for anything else. Well I guess that'll be after exams. Hais. Actually, I even doubt so.

2009-08-27T21:45:00.004+08:00

Geography test tomorrow and I haven't studied finish.

Random: Geog teachers are nice!

I'm so planning to major in Geography and just let go off Physics in Year 5. That will mean no physics major for me.

Physics is so super demoralizing. No matter how much I practice, I just can't improve it. I have no idea why and I got a 66% today for the quiz when I could have gotten at least a 80% all thanks to the careless mistakes. Everytime it's either super hard or I just keep making careless mistakes.

Ergh. Results are getting so, disgusting.

Chem and Bio are not in a very good situation too, especially chem. This sem, I finally know how it feels to blank out during a quiz. I've always known how esters are, but I just can't remember during the quiz. Damn ><

IR to work on.
Music Theory Exam in October.

PHYSICS TEST next week. ohmygod noooooo.

CHEMISTRY QUIZ next week too. T.T

CO Concert is coming. o.o I'm having extra performances this year and practicing on Sunday.

TDay rehearsal on Saturday.

cheMagic workshop : 4th Sept.

Oh u know what. Even my chinese is falling into A- range. #@$#@$

I really really need to start working super hard. Life cannot go on to be like this. Stand up from where I fell and continue. I guess I need a break.

A long long, break.

hmm.

2009-08-25T00:11:00.002+08:00

战争年代，有个女人到沙漠中的军营去探望丈夫。不久，丈夫被派出差，她一个人被留下了。风不停地刮着，周围是陌生的墨西哥人和印第安人，没有人和她说话。她难过极了，写信向父亲夫说痛苦，父亲的回信只有两行字：“两人从监狱的铁窗往外看，一个看见了烂泥，一个却看见了星星。” 从此这两行字铭刻在她心中，使她的整个一生为之改观。

ahh! Results ><

2009-08-23T20:14:00.002+08:00

RAWR.

Results are getting lousier and lousier these days for me.

I wanted to 拼 this semester.

But I just somehow lost all my energy.

Grrr.

CO Mafia:

2009-08-17T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hahaha. I'm getting happier these few days. I think the time helps, especially with these people around me. (: Thanks all.

Anyway, Gregory came back to school today, after sooo looong of trying meet up, we finally got to meet up today! He reached school at 6pm and after some chatting and photo taking, we went to Sumo House to have dinner! (:

We had fun talking to him and chatting about the good old CO days in Year 1 and 2. hahaha. And telling him about the new things in school x) Greg is just still as weird and funny as ever.

Mrawr. Greg, as all of us know, is super pro! He's gonna go to the Massachusetts Institute of Technology (MIT) on Saturday. I'm going to send him off! :D

Zhaoye is flying of the same day in the morning to Harvard University. Woah. Hahaha.

Their lives are set already man. It's successful. Though we joked alot today, I was inspired. Greg as usual, inspires. hahaha. I shall work hard too. (: Stop slacking Suchang! D:<

I still have the MIT Keychain that Greg gave me after his MIT attachment when I was in Year 1. Only if I can enter a school like that and buy it for myself.

Happy Bday!

2009-08-16T22:21:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIONA!! =D

Thanks for the encouragement today! ((:
And SO SORRY FOR MISSING YOUR BBQ! ><

sick

2009-08-13T20:39:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I just cried in class last Thursday when I received the sms from my mum saying that I need to fly off the next day cos my great grandma is not gonna make it through the next few days.

For some reason fever just had to hit me on that same day same time. Before my mum could fetch me from school, my temperature had already went up to 38.4. We had to cancel the flight so I didnt get to fly back in the end.

I've never hated a pandemic so much before. I just hate H1N1 and the fact that Singapore is following America to bring down the measures and now virus is spreading among the students like nobody's business. If the virus weren't spreading like that, I could have went back, I could have seen her for the last time.

She's not just another relative to me. She's someone I've grown up with besides my parents and my grandparents. I love her.

Since Thursday, every phone call from my dad never fails to make me worry about what he's gonna say before I answer the call. I thought I was prepared for the worst. On Sat morning past 6am, when he called to say that she's not gonna make it, I didn't say anything. I was surprised I had no response. I was simply shocked.

7.53am, that was the time she left all of us.

I didn't cry. I held back until Tuesday when I couldn't take it anymore and I let it all out.

大奶奶，我会永远永远的记得你。我忘不了小时候你陪我在阳台上玩，陪我去逛夜市，陪我睡觉。还有我陪你打麻将，陪你看京剧。到你年老谁都记不起来的时候，你居然还认得我，还叫得出我的名字。可是我却没有陪你走完最后的几天，也没有见到你最后一面。

这是我一辈子的遗憾。